In general it has been a very hard time for me. I arrived to Budapest and from the first moment I had this wierd feeling that I was a stranger at home. You know, I know this city but I could not feel connected to it. I had all kind of problems with my mobile phone with my bank accounts, with my university etc. And people in general were really rude to me. I don't mean my friends, but those You get in touch running after Your tiny little business.
My best friend left the country for years within days of my arrival and I found it almost impossible to come on terms with this. I have been missing Kristóf every single day and I know that it won't change, I don't want to change it.
I was lost. I was talking a lot with people all over from my last year (and before) and felt that my place would be somewhere with them in Zambia, India, China, Norway, France...
If anyone had offered me a ticket anywhere I would have taken it!
That was the dark side. Of course I did great things. I was witness at Kristóf's wedding just a couple of days after my arrival (they had basically waited for me :-)) and it was such a wonderful and moving experience. I felt so so happy, and this was one of the few occassions I felt happy for others. I simply couldn't wipe the grin off my face. I guess I behaved a bit stupidly, I just felt this enthusiasm and I wanted to express, I wanted to share but I had no clear ideas how to... Who cares?! I was there! It was a moment worth to live for.
I spent almost a whole day with my ex-girlfriend who's expecting her first child and is in the last weeks. We spent some time in the maze of Hungarian bureaucracy then shared a lunch a coffe and after all those we had a shopping-marathon! We were buying napkins, all kinds of wipping towels and powders and baby shampoos and so on and so on... It was great fun, just everyone asked if I was the lucky father. I had to admit that I fucked it up quite some time ago so I missed this opportunity.
And also at the university I bumped into some nice guys who also decided to extend their studies and therfore we were familiar to each other. Of course we stick together ;-) And in this way I got into a whole new network of friends. Nice, very interesting and really bright people and I feel almost the same I felt in Norway and I was afraid that I would lose by coming home: that I am in an inspiring and interesting environment where I can learn and have fun at the same time. COOL!
And today I took my fist pics! As you might have recognized I like to boost my posts with some photos, so I decided to to take my camera with me eventually (what I never did before at home).
We went to the World Press Photos exhibition in the morning, then decided to go to Margaret Island to chill out. We lied down on the river bank enjoyed the autumn sun and was doing nothing in the whole afternoon but chatting, throwing leaves on each other, listening Kispál, U2 and Manu Chao...
Then in the evening I had my first theathre experience in this year (ok, ok.. I was not at home!). Riviera from Ferenc Molnár... well it was a bit disappointing. It just couldn't have a grip on me. I was a bit tired and the guys on the stage were not very convincing (to me, because my brother liked it). Oh, and it was an invitation from my Dad who used this little event to introduce me her latest girlfriend! Wow! What a busy day! She seemed nice but I was too tired to really socialize so I just kept it smooth.