As it is in Heaven

I downloaded my favourite film! I saw it four times when it ran in cinemas. During downloading I was checking on the percentage and the remaining time again and again. I just couldn't wait! Then it finally arrived, and turned out that I got the Swedish version without subtitels. Ok, the movie itslef is Swedish (Sa som i himmelen) so in a way it's fair enough, but in the file name the title is in English. I anyway watched it, what could I do?! Then to compansate myself I watched Lost in translation right after. Now it's finished, the time is 2:15 a.m.
On Sunday I woke up late and with hangover, not that I mind, the night was great, my first stag party ever (Congratulations Geri!), it really is a cool event and Geri is a cool guy who deserves all the bests, so let's wish him all the bests!
So, I only had time for a quick shower and a fast lunch (toast with cheese) before leaving for the theatre. I hate that I am so critical lately but I just can't get to a proper play, can anyone help me?!

But there are good news: Isabel is back from India (Wilkommen!), Natacha is getting cafe latte with foam (and without sugar), and Hanna promised to tell me about my destiny. All these in one single, sleepy, dark, wet, unfriendly...... Sunday.
There were other things last week worth to mention (I lost my blue hat! I lost it! How could I?.... On the same night I had carbonara, what a carbonara! - Roller coaster indeed!) but not now, maybe tomorrow, or later... or never.
I just write this because I don't want to finish with the word "never" brings bad karma.
And this becasue I don't want to finsih with "bad karma".
You are never alone with Your schizophrenia!

Peter flakes

Honestly I wanted to write here. I logged in and started my post. Then this stupid feeling came that it was my obligation to put here something nice, smart or deep. And as I consider myself the biggest enemy of any obligations... I quit the job.

Present situation: mind is clear, I am sick, tired and quite not in the mood to care about anything but entertaining myself with posting something. Anything. Whatever... and random...

Thursday: went to Veszprém to visit my brother (half) and my nephew (also half but considered full). He is one and a half now and I haven't seen him since December (wasn't aroun, huh!). We arrived and attacked the poor fellow fighting for his attention. He basically gave a shit about us, strangers, didn't even bother himself with getting scarred. Cool kid, but I hope he will get a brother or sister a.s.a.p. otherwise he will be inevitably spoiled like hell. I was wondering a bit about my family: I have this half brother I have never in my life had a real conversation as far as I can remember. I like him a lot and he really is a great guy, smart, lazy and calm. We used to have summer holidays together, besides I see 3-4 times a year. Not much, but I count on him. Then I have my half sister who must be 14 now and - as she was also there - I tried to figure out what do I think about her. Well... actually nothing. She is just a girl who attends these family gatherings and I always ask her about school havinfg no better idea what to talk about. We have very little in common and even if we have I am not much intereted right now to find it. I couldn't help feeling disappointed and ashamed.

Just a little bit back in time, Monday. I was sitting in an institution called Monyo famous for a drink with the same name, that consists of vodka, raspberry syrup and tabasco. Since September I have become a regular there, almost part of the furniture I would say. Well, I am exaggerating of course and even worse! I do it on purpose. Hey, keep an eye on me, I am cheating!
Anyway, it was a peacful evening I was surrounded by nice people: friends and would be friends (it takes time for me to make friends). Then then out of the blue the whole night turned upside down. I started to sense that something was going wrong and I helplessly tried not to pay attention hoping that by this I can stop it evolving. There are those situtaions You wonder how to react or behave - with the certainty that You won't live up to the challenge.

Ok, time machine reloded, Friday. Not far from here I huge building is under demolition and I decided to havea closer look and eventually take some photos. I suffered some delay because in order to accomplish this mission I needed to recharge my batteries. My life is not like a stupid action movie I have my little delays. Maybe that's why I prfefer art movies. Anyway, aprroached the target area (actually I pass by at least twice a day as it's on my way to the Metro) took my cam from the pocket and I had this weird feeling (most of my feelings are kind of weird, maybe I should visit a psychiatrist) as if I was doing something illegal. You know this sense of guilt, I wanted to hide what I was doing. And of course it was self-fulfilling prophecy. Very soon I became kindly surrounded by two of theses low-cost security crews. They had approximately around 8 teeth... together. But even with this outfit they were highly capable to advise me to fuck off. They told me that I was taking photos of a private property (Spanish!!!). Then a real gem came, I can still recall it: "If You don't not want to be beaten up badly (badly!!!) You'd better push Your bike away (I was on foot)" I told them that I was a lawyer (LIAR!!!) and that I knew my rights very well (not exactly true). I tried to look confident but I wasn't! Then they started to shout so I shouted back and at this point I realized that they did not dare to hit me - no matter how many teeth they had. But it was anyway a disturbing incident. I don't want to have a long monologue about democracy and freedom rights but next time I want to take a photo somewhere in the city I will certainly have the same feeling as I had here at the begining and that's not ok, that's not how I want to live. These guys I could handle but they are not the problem rather the sypmtoms of a rotten system. JEEEEEEZ!

List of inconveniences:
1. I haven't talked to Kristóf for almost two weeks.
2. I haven't even sent him birthday greetings.
3. I still don't know Hanna's new address in Venice.
4. I still haven't visited a dentist.
5. I still haven't rented out my flat.
6. I still don't have any idea what to write my diploma work about.